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Thursday, April 7th, 2005
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) goddiestoo this is my new LJ. please add it, i might actually update this one.
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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im learning to play the piano.
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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
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| Time: | 10:47 am. |
| Mood: |  anxious. | | Music: | "fuck the pain away"-peaches. |
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i get to see nicole the week of spring break and im gonna have sex with her everyday im there. i love her<3
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Monday, November 15th, 2004
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"we gotta get the fuck out of here right the fuck right now. 'why?' because the men i see arent normal men; they're like half panther, half man."
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Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
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you're just a stupid girl, I ain't no brillant boy.
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Sunday, October 10th, 2004
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It's the hardest test to pass.
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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thanks kirk, for the comment. its been a few years. im gonna go kill myself now.
late.
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Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
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Saturday, September 11th, 2004
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| Time: | 3:35 am. |
| Music: | conzeys sweet voice.. |
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im back in the cone zone where i belong.
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hey kids lets get nude and wacky!
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| Time: | 2:57 am. |
| Music: | something tuff. |
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suicide is sweeping the hardcore nation.
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Sunday, September 5th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:35 pm. |
| Mood: |  sad. | | Music: | if youre feeling sinister. |
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i just got done trying to kill myself. and it didnt go too well. when i was walking out of the bathroom my dad saw the mess i made and got pissed off so he punched me in the fucking face. "tryin to fuckin kill yourself again?" thats all i heard before i saw his fist coming towards my face. im more pissed because since im still here that means i have to go to work tomorrow. i dont know whats worse home or work. i go to work and get shit from my boss then i come home and get shit from my dad. but what really hate the most is that i dont relly have anyone to talk to. i just write in lj. i swear im getting out of vegas. im saving my money so i can finally escape this place. i need to find someplace better. away from the corrupt. tonite im gonna go out and get wasted or stoned. i need to numb the pain and the sadness. i just to feel something different, something real, something pure. i need to feel any of these things if only just once.
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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when ever i log onto elle jay it makes me think im the only kid whos ever been happy.
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Sunday, August 15th, 2004
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Saturday, August 7th, 2004
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| Subject: | friday. |
| Time: | 6:42 pm. |
| Mood: |  cold. | | Music: | steps and numbers-the appleseed cast. |
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i have a court date but its worth it 'cause i got to see pedro the lion. so fuck it.
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Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
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do you remember the night love comitted suicide?
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Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
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on sunday morning im leaving for california and ill be staying there a week. im very excited, its gonna be good to get away from vegas. its such a horrible place to be a kid. its so corrupt. i really need a break from it all. it should be pretty cool because im gonna see nicole. ive been making her a notebook full of random things and she has been making be a notebook. we will exchange notebooks.////we're supposed to go to some theme parks. then we're gonna go to my grandparents town and stay with them for a couple days. im gonna bring my acoustic guitar so i can sit outside and sing about how boring it is in their town. its gonna be hella emo////
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i hit nicoles G spot. hella.
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so this weekend was a pretty good weekend. better than most. on friday i went to michaels and picked up some new paints and 64 crayons which only costed a dollar! i also got a new indie latch for my keys, i didnt purchase this. then later in the day i went to savers and bought a t-shirt, some other items i aquired but did not pay for include a lovely neck tie, some ray ban wayfarrers[straight out of a bret easton ellis novel], and a cute pochaco wallet. later in the day i went to the higher show[haha] i really just went to see some friends. i spent most of my time outside in that cage smoking cigarettes and chatting with people. i got home at 2 am and i was kinda wasted so my mom gave me the bitch out for about an hour then my dad, who was also kinda wasted, hit me in my face. i was so pissed off. im just sick of dealing with this shit. my mom tried to make it up to me by buying me these delightful exotic blend camel twists yesterday. theyre made with rare tobaccos, exotic spices and a splash of citrus flavor to give it a unique taste. theyre pretty good but still a secondary cigarette. djarm special is still my brand. anyway the rest of the time was just spent hanging out and playing music. maybe in the near future ill have some pics of the stuff i got from savers and the black eye my dad gave me.
im seriously considering running away. does anyone wanna let me stay with them for a while?
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creative.
content.
cynical.
accomplished.
busy.
moody.